The end is here....And I'm a wreck!

It’s official, I’m full term and baby can be born ANY minute!! This is both exciting and terrifying at the same time but Shai is so beyond excited that it’s keeping my fears at bay. He is obsessed with my belly and loves talking to the baby. I think the fact that I’ve been a pleasure cruise shocked him so much that he thinks I’m some super star for having an amazing pregnancy. While I have to say, I have been very calm about things, no crazy cravings, no major mood swings, I have been EXTREMELY emotional lately. Today was one of my teariest days yet. It started this morning when I took Tyler (my nephew) to his music class at Three Little Birds. We're all sitting in a circle singing Old Mcdonald and each kid had a puppet. When it got to their turn they had to say the animal and the noise it made. I watched Tyler eyeing each kid as they either said their animal or got shy and chose to stay silent. Tyler usually takes time to warm up but when it was his turn he proudly yelled MONKEY! and did the best monkey noise ever…You guessed it, the tears were streaming. I was seriously so proud of him and couldn’t help myself! After Old Mcdonald the teacher and pianist started singing Lean On Me..I mean really? Are they trying to kill me! The tears were flowing down my face and I was getting the strangest looks from all the nannies around me. I told you- I’m a mess! Then this afternoon Shai and I went for my weekly doctors appointment and I did my usual ritual of telling the nurse I don’t want to get weighed. You should all know until today I have gained a total of 24 pounds and the weight was a relatively slow process. I hop on today and I gained 2.5 pounds in 8 days!!! My eyes almost popped out of my head. To add fuel to the fire, the nurse tells me she noticed “ a little J-lo booty going on”. Shai said it looked like I was going to stab her and I’m actually surprised I didn’t. No instead I do what I always do and started sobbing uncontrollably. Thank god for my amazing doctor who told me its totally normal and I probably wont gain any weight next week- crisis diverted. She also gave me the exciting news that I’m almost 100% effaced. For all my male readers out there I’m not going to explain what this means because you will probably be grossed out learning what happens to a woman’s cervix when she’s pregnant. For those who do know what that means will understand why I’m freaking- this baby according to my doctor should be here in more than one week but less than two! OH BOY!!! (Or GIRL??)

Another reason I cant stop crying is because I’m dealing with a very unique situation. While most girls put their feet up during their last 2 weeks or start nesting and getting the nursery ready, I’m busy moving…again! In the 5 years Shai and I have been together we have moved 5 times! I realize it comes with the territory because of his business (he buys, renovates and sells apartments) but it doesn’t make it any less stressful. We are moving to a slightly bigger apartment in our building while Shai renovates our real apartment that I plan to live in for at least 3 years (Which sadly would be a record for us). There is literally NEVER a dull moment in my life and I’m not sure why I thought the end of my pregnancy would be any different. While I would like to hope today will be a tear free day, I was advised to stop working out if I want to keep this baby in a bit longer and will most likely burst into tears when handing in my gym freeze letter.